Haha, okay, I don’t need the upside down exclamation point when typing in English, but I sort of like it. Alt+173 = ¡ (just in case you wondered how to type it on a PC).
So, tomorrow is May 12th. At 8:43 in the morning, I shall celebrate the 34th anniversary of my own birth. Hooray. *sigh*
I really thought I’d be… different. More, by the time I hit my mid-thirties. Mid. Thirties. Holy crap… that’s weird to think about. I am pretty sure I’m still about twenty-three in my brain. Which is impossible since I’ve been with Mark ten years (a DECADE?!) this year. I am definitely old(er), but I don’t feel it. I feel… at once young and ancient.
But this year has been mostly good. Oh sure, we stress about money constantly, but there seems to be hope on the horizon. And we still live in a rented place, not an owned one, but there’s hope for that as well. We have Venna and we have a solid, lovely life together. We hang out and enjoy our time together. And our health, while not perfect, is on the mend.
Life is good.
And yeah, I never thought I’d live to see this age. I’ve always been sure I would die young and horribly. But for now, I’m still here and I am choosing Joy.
It is something my sister posted on Facebook recently and it really made me stop and thinking. She’s good for that, my wickedly clever little sister.
A day doesn’t have to be grey, you can choose to smile. A problem doesn’t have to be insurmountable, you can choose to keep climbing. A chocolate Cadbury Mini-Egg doesn’t have to be eaten, you can choose health.
So that’s my goal for my 34th year.
Choosing Joy. Choosing the things that make me a happier, healthier, better person.
Which yes, means also choosing NOT to do things too.
But in the end, I know choosing joy will make #34 the best year ever. I will ride the rides at Hershey Park with my husband, finally (FINALLY) not too fat and too scared. I will complete another novel. I will learn to enjoy sweating. I will eat more vegetables than vegetarians and I will radiate health.
I will CHOOSE JOY!
And maybe, if all this comes together (no, WHEN this all comes together), Mark and I will be blessed with a little girl or boy. If so, I’ll be hard pressed not to choose Joy once more, and give it to them as a middle name.
Happy Birthday, Josie. You can do it!
Note: Image is “Fireworks over Columbus River 1” by (edgar0587) from SXC.hu